Semak…semak…semak! (not sémak)
Been having such perasaan for many times on and off. Living in a house full of unripe men really makes me feel to chew someone out. Maybe perhaps, I really have to leave. Now is all Greek to me…from sekecil-kecil issues to sebesar-besar bagak.
You tell me…
Do you think it is appropriate to just flipping the channels when there are peeps (only me jer actually most of the time) watching a tv programme?
My stacks were taken, and no replacement, and even worst, x mintak kebenaran! What happen to hormat-menghormati property orang lain?
Arghhh…pagi-pagi nak pergi kerja, fuel indicator lentok habis to EMPTY. But I thought, I have filled up the tank yesterday morning?
Oh ya, always rushing back to dine at home. No doubts, air tangan paduka memang yummy…tapi balik, notice was up “KITCHEN IS CLOSED FOR TODAY”. Ask around if they wanted to tapau. Vaguely they said that they all kenyang already…they had some delicious ayam panggang kuali. Am I invisible?
There are other funny, funny things happen in my life. Well, not all funny though. But funny to see how they react when I behave differently, more vicious way. I know they need me, but do they know how desperately they need me? Of course we need each other, blood is thicker than water, I can’t deny that. But they have to snap out from being ignorance and all that jazz.
Hmm..even a leopard can't change his spots…so biar lah…
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Unfortunately, even the best maintained friendships can end.
Why am I writing again…?
Sitting down at my office desk, I realize how I miss several people in my life and long lost friendships. Many friendships end because of a change in personality or lifestyle when friends just drift apart and fade away with time. There is a retreat from self-disclosure and seeking out each others company. Avoidance begins. The friendship slowly loses importance and finally disappears. But then, there are those that just decided to stop being friend with me, and this is the most agonizing. I have and had those that labeled as good friends, best friends, or even close friends. By the way, are there any significance differences?
Good friends – those that are always been decent enough for us?
Best friends – those that are ‘just what the doctor ordered’?
Close friends – those that are always there for you, through good and bad?
Well, that could only be my assumption, my understanding, but foremost, how I want them to be! Back to the story on those decided don’t want to be friend with me. When the thing hit me on the face, it hits me hard. Some would ask why I didn’t fight for the friendship. I would always retort with silence. Then the only respectable thing to do was crying. Unworthy and betrayal… It took me by surprise to hear them from someone that I looked up for being strong, open-minded and funny. But most of all, someone that always make sense to me. Torn me apart when undelivered communication was stuffed down, no opportunity was given. And for years I have dodging bullets with my silence. And even the silence felt like somebody snatch your heart and stab it into pieces...
Now, I am still wondering. What does it takes to have a good friend that is best enough to bring it closer deep to my life? Or perhaps I should be humble enough to be needed, appreciated and loved by a friend?
The hardships of life seem bearable with a confidante known as a friend. Life is about twists and turns. There are happy endings with sad interludes. One needs to talk to someone or consult a person. And I hope, those that ended friendships with me, would find a replacement as I know life is not getting easier without one. Though modern life is tough and meeting a good friend seems difficult, there is always the need to share and preserve friendship. But life is sad at times and misunderstandings may make you lose friends...
Still standing…If I had to choose between betraying my country and betraying my friend, I hope I should have the guts to betray my country.
Sitting down at my office desk, I realize how I miss several people in my life and long lost friendships. Many friendships end because of a change in personality or lifestyle when friends just drift apart and fade away with time. There is a retreat from self-disclosure and seeking out each others company. Avoidance begins. The friendship slowly loses importance and finally disappears. But then, there are those that just decided to stop being friend with me, and this is the most agonizing. I have and had those that labeled as good friends, best friends, or even close friends. By the way, are there any significance differences?
Good friends – those that are always been decent enough for us?
Best friends – those that are ‘just what the doctor ordered’?
Close friends – those that are always there for you, through good and bad?
Well, that could only be my assumption, my understanding, but foremost, how I want them to be! Back to the story on those decided don’t want to be friend with me. When the thing hit me on the face, it hits me hard. Some would ask why I didn’t fight for the friendship. I would always retort with silence. Then the only respectable thing to do was crying. Unworthy and betrayal… It took me by surprise to hear them from someone that I looked up for being strong, open-minded and funny. But most of all, someone that always make sense to me. Torn me apart when undelivered communication was stuffed down, no opportunity was given. And for years I have dodging bullets with my silence. And even the silence felt like somebody snatch your heart and stab it into pieces...
Now, I am still wondering. What does it takes to have a good friend that is best enough to bring it closer deep to my life? Or perhaps I should be humble enough to be needed, appreciated and loved by a friend?
The hardships of life seem bearable with a confidante known as a friend. Life is about twists and turns. There are happy endings with sad interludes. One needs to talk to someone or consult a person. And I hope, those that ended friendships with me, would find a replacement as I know life is not getting easier without one. Though modern life is tough and meeting a good friend seems difficult, there is always the need to share and preserve friendship. But life is sad at times and misunderstandings may make you lose friends...
Still standing…If I had to choose between betraying my country and betraying my friend, I hope I should have the guts to betray my country.
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