Rumah dah siap, pahat masih berbunyi...sighhhh...

It means even though the event is done, you can still hear people talking about it (in a ‘–‘tive way).

First it was the door gifts. Lots of my friends didn’t get it. So, I have to call them, FB them, whatspps them to check.

The food all gone by 3ish, and those who came after that were unlucky. It doesn’t make sense since we cater for 600 guests, and the caterer did for 700 guests instead.

My candy buffet got thwacked and by 1ish, no more candy, cupcakes, sweets, macaroon, etc were available. I got frustrated on this since I always adore candy buffet concept.

Most that were invited turned up at the event. I missed few, but I guess they have a valid reason for not coming. I keep on saying that I want a closed event. Not to only just invite friends or relatives. But to share the moment with those that are dear to me. Setakat kawan-kawan sekolah or colleagues, tapi x close, memang tak ajak arrr. They don’t even know my family, or even my life, and now they want to pretend that they are happy for me, and want to be part of it. Wallaweii…if I were them, it’s okay not to be invited, as they should cherish the moment with those who are really care for them, yes?

Apart from all the commotion, everything else went smooth (or maybe there was a wardrobe malfunction!). The hall deco was excellent, really thankful to my kazen and her crew. I just which I was part of the crew though…but my kazen tak kasi I get involve at all…sob…sob…sob…The dais for photo taking also beautiful. My Moroccan deco concept seems menjadi. Everybody likes it!

To be Mrs enAhmad.

15 days ago, I was Ijab Kabul kan, dan sah menjadi seorang isteri. Now I have 2 lives to live to the fullest. I’m not sure how this new life will change the old ones. But rather changing anything, I berdoa I will be a better person so that those surrounding me will feel better, behaving better and live well.

"Best tak kahwin?” seems to be the famous question asked. How should I say this…BEST la! X kan nak cakap x best pulak. But I know, marriage means more than just a legal sex. It’s about losing territory in bed, putting the toilet seat down, picking up dirty clothes, sharing a bowl of everything, and most of all...dropping your license to sending smokes signal, erk…

Maybe we are living luxuriously in a penthouse, I don’t feel the pain of being his wife. The time will come, definitely. But while waiting, I pledge to enjoy the moment and not to over-thinking about it. Get the basic strong, and let’s be creative along the way. If only we'd stop trying to be happy we could have a pretty good time, yes?

Looking for Paduka for rent

Being simple and membazir seems to be overrated. What is simple for me, means no protocol, just relax and no stiffness. But for Paduka, simple simply means no need invitation cards, just leverage on Short Message Service. It’s membazir to hire a photographer, but it’s okay to make another dress, in case my choice tak kena dengan taste dia. Crap! It’s like a fool and his money are easily parted, don’t you think so?

My obsession for paper craft is not a mystery. For this event, I would say it is the most controversial decision I have to make. enAhmad was struggling with me on this. Eventually, any decisions I made, does affecting him badly. But whatever it is, I’m prepared to face the music.

Put a Ring on It

Life time commitment offer was on the table for almost 2 years. Question was popped between the flats tires, hundreds of hard cornering, and thousands of sprints.

I'm not the type that have imaginary wedding when I was 12. I'm not the type that appreciates pretty, gorgeous things. Black is my new pink since I could have a say in nail polish colours! Putting on the white dress with lower volume of my pitch would be something that I'm not looking forward to. They misunderstood me...

But for those that knew me well, will definitely feel my rush for different and unique things. Still undefined, but the feeling is obvious.

My eyes for rocks just keep on rocking from the early beginning of the haunting. I was so freaking nervous on the investment. But it turns out obsoletely brilliant!


They might not want to understand it, but doesn't mean I have to part of the ignorance.

With bloods and tears

Here we go again...

The countdown has started months ago. Every morning, I will hear “Morning 38!”, and the number become smaller and smaller. My war is not with the things that I couldn’t get, it’s with PADUKA.


“Bro, could you get your ass down, I can’t hold the fort anymore. “ The very next day, the whole troop came down. It was about time. Life has become haywire and I just want to get this done. They are been asking me questions. Felt like just want to give them the straight answers pairing with my straight face! Luckily enAhmad already yanks down his skirt and back on pants.

Always remind myself, think the bigger picture, if you're going through hell, just keep going or you’ll burn yourself.

Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end, yes?